I got my mind made up

Am feeling like a lion low on blood sugar. Everything is turning into juicy steak to me. Am tired and am so fucking hungry... for a change. Am not the biggest fan of conventional change... Radical Change, maybe... Am I so over fucking sensitive. I thought it was a weakness made by God for Women. Am just thinking loud, ignore that. A few things are missing in my life, and I have decided to save myself from a life time of embarrassment and usher myself into a life of ultimate "freedom" (that shit is relative).

As I am right now, I could do with a few millions every month (am not greedy see), and start a family (1 wife, 2 kids, 1 husband). And if that is not achievable now, I shall do what I have to do until I strike 30 and see if the few million bucks a month will surface. Else at 30, I should be hitting a few good buck, and I'll sail the world, have fun for the rest of my life. I'll fashi the start-a-family dream, and seek the path that would still put a wide grin on my face while sticking out my middle finger as I breathe my last.

I had a dream. I was about 70yrs old, but looked just the same. I perceived the age, and trust me it was 70-ish. I looked around, and I saw the future. Everything was different. I sensed the fear of old age. I wasn't wrinkled. What does that mean?

Living 360

Over the last few years, I have been placed in situations that I regard as too tight for me. I remember someone telling me that "You have to be serious with life, you have to be this and that..." A rich dude with everything going for him, a dream house in Lekki, a multimillion dollar(?)/naira(?) firm, flashy ride, nice life, a fmily... the Nigerian dream. But am just too involved with myself to start worrying about the Nigerian dream. I just want to LIVE.

As scary as it may seem, I have a strong feeling that is like my last time on planet earth. I don't want to come back, so I don't look forward to having children (yea, shoot me, and am serious), am not keen on it. Male children are like your comeback ticket, and Female children are like Doorway (I'll expand on this in another post). So since this is my last incarnation(?), I just want to live. If I have to work, I want to get paid having fun; Traveling the world, meeting people, watching movies, tasting food, learning & understand different cultures, have a partner who loves sex as much as I do, and sees life from a God's Perspective (GP).

I'm tired of materialism, YES I want money, clothes, shelter, etc, but I don't want them to tie me down. I want these things to worship me and not the reverse. I don't want to pile up millions somewhere, but I want to have something (fun too) that can generate the millions, and share them with those I love and care for. I want to visit every major city in world in my 'sane city' list.

Am loosing my mind now. Society pressure. Friend cirlce. Internal processes. These 'things' are making loose my mind everytime am alone. Then last night, I said to myself, "UnNaked Soul, you have until you reach 34 (if you live to see it) to make me LIVE. I want to explore every corner of the earth. Everything you need is within your reach, GRAB IT!" Then I woke up. So now, am living my last time on earth. No attachment to anything but the need to be fufilled...